Loving US Activist(s)

Wednesday, June 27, 2012

Death Fast Restart - My deepest condolences to the few to travel close to me

To you few that have courageously stood so close with me, for so long,

Maybe a week or two ago I saw, really for the first time, sadly I didn't forsee as I could have, that you few would bear the brunt of the attacks on me and on my work, for two reasons - 1. You have contact with a wider circle than I, and B. I being the author of this venture, as you will be the author of others, have the most authoritative, and therefore, defensible view of it; and I'm a lifelong practitioner and survivor, veteran of exactly such ventures.

I write the same, again, to you few, now, again, the only ones stupid enough, wise enough, Godless enough, Godly enough, ... =)) rolling on the floor

to have stood so close to me for so long. Yes, I'll set myself up yet again, Jesus knew what he was in for. The Apostles, Peter especially, just couldn't, and didn't, and yet it is Peter that was most taunted and tortured - 'Weren 't you with the Nazareen?' Terrifying him. Traumatizing him.

And now, with the prospect of Loving 'reneging' on dying just yet, oh what ridicule, taunts, pressures, negative splash back you will suffer, to your face, and behind your backs, do to having associated with me with such Faith, Grace, Wisdom and Courage for so long.

My only regret, for my person, is that this is NOT the time, may not be the time, for me to complete the Death Fast. Oh how I wish it were. I've written to you of my major 2 miscalculations, the 2 major issues I didn't understand, until this point. The death fast IS the correct weapon, and until we use it, until the conditions are right to use it, there will be no hope. But, 1. with I being the only one to have mastered it, and the only one having mastered, or even interested in mastering the 105 Characterisics, and 2. with no hint of 10, let alone 1000 to pick up the instructions, characteristics, the training, the elite forces recruiting... this may not yet be the time for my exit. NUMBERS MATTER. The True, Useful, Potent million is EASY, after the 1000 INSHE Warriors are recruited and trained, the task of Jesus not yet achieved 2000 years later. Oh, millions are already on the field, and have been for 15 years on the issue of averting environmental Armageddon, and will be for 15 or 45 more, but not the Bangladeshi's; and the millions currently on the field will weep crocodile tears for the Bangledeshi's, but the Bangledishi's will fricking die in the tears of those impotent, cowardly, self deluding, disgustingly removed and overprivileged millions, exactly the type of crap Jesus died to save the Bangledishi's, and the rest of us from, 2000 years ago.

The next generation bunker buster is being prepared, developed, brought to the world for completion and use by a specific first date. Will it be used on that date? No one knows. Will it ever be used? No one knows. When it is tested, the fact of that test, may be enough to dissuade Iran from continuing the same game of 'chicken' that didn't work out real well for the Iraqis. From the perspective of the war that the US may fight, does it make sense to have announced the next generation bunker buster, begun construction of it, with furious speed so that it be ready to use in time? Even though no one knows if it ever will be used? Yes.

I say all this in hindsight. It never in my wildest dreams occurred to me that I might be delaying, for 6 months, or forever the use of this weapon, personally. As I've written many times, I totally don't 'get' Gandhi's Oaths, Swearing's.... Oh, I 'get' them tactically, but not Righteously. Except in the rarest of strategic circumstances, the duty of a Warrior is not to carry through on a strategy, but to win the objective. And so it always will be with me.

Never in my wildest dreams did I envision any changes, in me, or in the battlefield, unfolding within my life regarding the Death Fast. Though always I was explicitly open to change. What kind of a cultist, or zealot would I be if I were not? But, partly out of duty to you few, standing as close to me as you have, I've endeavored to clearly discern within and for myself, and then to you, what and why I was contemplating these recent weeks, and days. And, I had as long as a month ago, invited your qualified efforts in any rethinking, an invitation largely ignored, as is entirely appropriate in your best judgement. A few more essays, notes, will come forth to you soon.

Though I share your pain of them (your pain is my pain), I don't regret the position you've put yourselves in, the pressures, strains you'll continue to suffer, even after you detach and distance from me, if and when you do so. "If it doesn't kill you, you grow." I've grown immeasurably, and infinitely faster, because of my relationship with each of you, than I'd ever have grown without, and for that I'll be Eternally Blessed, and Grateful.

And no matter what happens hence forth, I pray you too may be enriched by what association we've had.

More soon.

Loving u, forever, no matter what

Tuesday, June 26, 2012

Death Fast Restart - The two deaths that must be avoided

In each of my last two or three fasts, abstaining from food, the notion that without an army there is no hope has come to the fore, powerfully on numerous occasions, and then receded. It has not receded because I've re-thought the idea. Rather it's been crowded out by other important considerations; and this has occurred without my consciously recognizing or controlling process.

Any and all hope for the human species, on its deathbed, and all life which we humans are on the cusp of irredeemably exterminating; all hope lies in an unviolent army, by whatever name, whether it conceives of itself that way or not, though it would. Not one person, not ten people not 1000 people alone, will change the course of history. So all hope lies in the formation of an INSHE army.

How does one person with this conception best do their part of bringing about such an army? As it relates to averting environmental Armageddon, for Loving, there seem to be three choices: 1. Be what the soldier should be, do what the soldier should do; which is to return to death fast, to restart the death fast. 2. The polar opposite, valid choice for Loving, is to be the best possible Sgt. Foley, the best possible Yoda. 3. Is there a #3? The death fast was premised, per se, on the answer being yes! And, to the degree that it was premised on the idea of blazing the trail, sinking the pilot well, this was the correct option. But subsequent to the death fast starting, among the things that have changed are, a. Loving's view that there are not, anywhere, remotely ready recruits to the army has intensified, sadly; b. the notion that everything depends on the army being formed, has taken yet another leap toward the center of Loving's strategic vision; and c. Loving has developed in his capacity and self-recognition as a Sgt. Foley, among the only (the only?) in significant part through the development of "Resurrecting the INSHE Warrior in You – a Personal Trainer."

The notion of gravity has occurred to me as a concept helpful in grappling with the underlying truth. Gravity like that which can be exerted by the moon. To attract people out of the Matrix - was that most likely to occur if: a. those who first got out – lived nobly and were quickly all killed, and no longer existed any of them, so they were lore, a myth, historical examples; or b. would those in the Matrix best be served if in their time there still were living examples? And that pretty well answers the question doesn't it? Living examples, barring any overriding situational imperative.

So for those outside the Matrix - Neo, Morpheus, the thousands of others, there were two deaths that they owed to the entire human species, two deaths that they owed it to them to avoid: A. the death of their Hearts to the head and the flesh; the death of their humanity, to say the same thing another way. The instant that they, recognized or unrecognized, that they allow that death, no longer were they a counter to entropy. B. Their physical death, because likewise, pretty much the instant that they allowed their physical death their hopefulness to those with pulse in the Matrix all but vanished.

If what's just been said is incorrect, that could be seen in thinking of the INSHE warriors of history. How much did their positive gravity diminish when they died? Clearly it did not diminish entirely. Did it diminish at all, did it increase? Is Dr. King's life an example? It seems that with his death, so too died the true insanely humane warriors that had been fighting alongside him. They became pseudo-warriors, fake warriors.

If the historical record can be trusted, Jesus death had the opposite effect for about 200 years, spawning an INSHE army of thousands, and maybe much more. But he saw initial recruits, if only a dozen or so; and Loving sees maybe one; no disrespect to anyone else.

This is very important to wrestle to the ground, because whether it's the strategy for Loving or some other INSHE warrior, this remains central to strategy. And it seems that both deaths must be avoided at all cost, except that the time and circumstance override - the most specific of circumstances by timing, readiness of others to pick up the work, and thereby, the existence of an army, at least in it's earliest stages of formation.

I've been down this circular road, before, but I experience becoming better at it; learning more each time.

Death Fast Restart - It may not be my time yet

And who would you have me compare myself to - Donald Trump? Dick Cheney? George Bush II? The sports figures that are in vogue? The media figures that are in vogue? Never have, never will, but in many circles I would not be criticized for that. But in comparing myself to Gandhi, King, Jesus, Alice Paul, Diane Wilson... I open myself to near certain ridicule from all quarters. So be it.

Paul Farmer was the founder or co-founder of Boston based, internationally focused Partners in Health. Dr. Kim, previously at Dartmouth, was the other cofounder, now head of the World Bank, or soon to take over there. Paul Farmer's easily one of the world's most respected humanitarian doctors, health systems for the neediest, in the world, for his work with Haiti, and the farthest, most inaccessible regions; with successfully fighting drug-resistant TB all over the world. And do you know where he claims to have gotten the basis for his morality? The Lord of the Rings Trilogy, and there is no indication that he is kidding. So, laugh it up. Ridicule if you like. Wisdom is to be found everywhere, except mostly, we want not to find wisdom, anywhere.

Obi-Wan Kenobi fought and fought and fought…, his body always in the way of the harm, and yet sometimes not. For a long time he retreated to a remote planet, it was neither his time to die nor his time to fight. And then he found it was his time to fight, and then he found his time to die.

Jesus ran from his would-be killers on numerous occasions; not to suggest he ran in fear; but strategically he assessed that his life would not best serve by being killed at that time.

This must be my eighth time of understanding that I was called toward death's door, to death's door, and yet this time it was clear to me I was called through death's door, this death fast. And I correctly heard the Call, as I have every time before.

Yet it seems that it is not yet my time. I'm not certain of that, but that's the way it's looking. The process of creating "Global Warming's Death. Fast," and the companion book "A Personal Trainer for the Insanely Humane Unviolent Warrior" have change things and changed me, and changed most importantly the field of battle with which I'm presented, and on which I choose to fight.

Particularly the "Personal Trainer" is a profoundly important work in its potential. Tolstoy's "Gospel and Brief" may be the most important book on the planet; Tolstoy being one of the most widely read authors in world history. And yet who's heard of, let alone read the "Gospel in Brief?" It could be and maybe should be the most widely read book on the planet. Tolstoy did his job in seeing, and writing what he did. We haven't done ours. Who's read it, who's heard of it? So I'm not suggesting that the "Personal Trainer for the Insanely Humane Unviolent Warrior" will be read. Seems unlikely. Maybe no one, almost no one will read it.

But what it's grown in me, and what it represents is hope that in me physically staying alive, that may increase in weeks or months somehow, the likelihood that others will read take it to heart.

Until about a week ago the Personal Trainer was 95 characteristics of the insanely humane effective warriors throughout history, unviolent warriors. Now it's a hundred and five. And number 100 is - No unviolent Army, no hope. These are assays that simply organically unfolded within me, and the number was established by what unfolded, not by me. That essay number 100 has taken particular prominence in my mind - No unviolent Army, no hope. Central to this death fast is the notion that when 1000 people are seen dying in front of the Canadian Embassy, global warming will stop. And it will not stop before. Well, that's an army of 1000. But more centrally it's the idea of an army. And I've come to the view, and it's been suggested to me, but tragically I seem to have to figure everything out for myself, I listen deeply, but I still have to figure everything out myself. I seem to be today's Sgt. Foley from "An Officer and a Gentleman." I hate that. I wish there were 10,000 that I saw, Sgt. Foley's. But I don't. So, what does the one Sgt. Foley on the scene do? Die? Before there are others to replace him? Depends on the time, and the circumstance.

It was clear on one of my prior to hunger strikes, 50 days in front of the White House, this notion that everything depended on an Army, the notion of INSHE warrior occurred to me at that point in time. And it has come back into the fore in my mind, that all hope, whatever tiny hope there is for humanity depends upon that emergence of an Army of insanely humane unviolent warriors. And me returning to death fast at this moment is not the best way for me to do that, maybe.

Now there was a moment when Obi-Wan Kenobi surrendering to Darth Vader's light saber blow was the time for him to physically exit so that spiritually he would take a greater prominence than ever before. That's the same decision that Jesus made. That's the same decision that I want to make. Timing. Circumstance. OTHERS TO TAKE OVER.

But having said that, none of the three made the decision per se. They recognized the conditions, they recognized and respected the situation, they recognized the opportunity that existed largely outside of their control with respect to its very nature, with respect to its timing. They didn't create all the circumstances, but they recognized when it was time and they recognized when it wasn't time.

This death fast has changed things. It's changed me; it's changed people around me, it's opened avenues of at least visible communication; Start Loving is on the mind of people that didn't know he existed three months ago. That was totally unforseen by me. But, there it is.

So instead of resuming death fast on July 4, Independence Day, I suspect I will not do that. But I don't know yet.

The other thing that's come clear in my mind or clearer, has returned to clarity because again, on one of the prior two hunger strikes it had achieved a clarity in me, that they're different ways of 'dying' for a cause; whether that cause is new countertops, a date with that girl, keeping one's job, liberating India, gaining civil rights, averting environmental Armageddon....

Nothing significant happens unless one is dying for the cause. Ever. But there are different ways, and a trillion slippery slopes. How easy it is to create deceptions for ourselves. The excuses, the temptations are near infinite, and impossibly aggressive. How near impossible it's been for 40 years for so-called activists to escape the delusion. Not 1 in 100,000 of them have been dying for a cause, and the only people who were fooled were themselves and their co-delusionists, the other activists. [The conservatives, the Republican's aren't fooled; this is the major reason for their detesting, being revolted at the left, and understandably so.] All evidence is that these 'activists' are not dying for a cause because people don't respond as though they are.

But Teresa of Calcutta over how many decades was clearly dying for the cause of the destitute in Calcutta. Stephen Biko in South Africa who struggle against apartheid was clearly dying for a cause months and years before he was captured by the South African police thugs and beaten to death.

Such a slippery slope. Those that attempt to die, other than physically, for a cause, of that small population not 1 in a million avoid deceiving themselves - and has their pulse continue to beat, but escapes the temptations at self delusion.

I was admonished recently [laughter] to take the Buddhist 'middle way.' It was well intended but what hogwash. However there could be a correct middle way. And for Jesus to survive as long as he did was the correct middle way. For Obi-Wan to fight as long as he did was the correct middle way. For Loving to fight as long as he has and to fight with pulse a bit longer, appears to be the correct middle way.

Monday, June 25, 2012

vid - GWD.F. Death Fast - It may not be my time yet

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Dll0Z10LrmE

Thursday, October 22, 2009

Iranian officials accept draft deal on uranium transfer Washington Post - ‎21 minutes ago

Iranian officials accept draft deal on uranium transfer

Washington Post -

‎21 minutes ago

Healthcare deadline spurred foes: White House's Axelrod Reuters - ‎6 hours ago

Healthcare deadline spurred foes: White House's Axelrod

Reuters -

‎6 hours ago

China, India Forge Alternative to UN Climate Treaty Bloomberg - ‎51 minutes ago

China, India Forge Alternative to UN Climate Treaty

Bloomberg -

‎51 minutes ago

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

Americans divided on Obama health plan Boston Globe - Foon Rhee - ‎4 hours ago‎

Americans divided on Obama health plan

Boston Globe - Foon Rhee - ‎4 hours ago‎

Obama Announces Steps to Channel Loans to Small Businesses Wall Street Journal - Henry J. Pulizzi - ‎25 minutes ago‎

Obama Announces Steps to Channel Loans to Small Businesses

Wall Street Journal - Henry J. Pulizzi - ‎25 minutes ago‎

White House to push for big pay cuts CNNMoney.com - David Ellis, Miguel Susana - ‎28 minutes ago‎

White House to push for big pay cuts

CNNMoney.com - David Ellis, Miguel Susana - ‎28 minutes ago‎

Hmmm. Still Garbage day at BuzzFlash.com.

The president is back to lecturing us about health care reform

http://www.americablog.com/2009/10/president-is-back-to-lecturing-us-about.html

Start here,

We WILL get Health Care via Pres. Obama when EVERY OTHER PRESIDENT HAS FAILED.

We WILL GET A PUBLIC OPTION ***AND*** KEEP MAJORITIES IN THE NEXT ELECTION,
unless visionless slugs like this author spook the Democrats actually WORKING alongside
Pres. Obama and blow the whole thing.

Looks like BuzzFlash's meds haven't kicked in yet today.